Let me give you this much encouragement, Smiles . . . There is great wisdom even in the title of your prayer request! You are wise enough to know (by faith) that God's Direction is better than anyone else's. And you also recognize where some of your struggle lies, as it does for all of us -- letting go and letting God. About six months ago, my relatively new boyfriend, who is a pilot, (I'll call him Captain) took me out for my first small airplane ride, which I thought I was fairly well prepared for. The plane has something called dual controls, which means that at any time both the pilot and navigator agree, the controls can be exchanged from one to anothe.
After only ten minutes of flying, Captain turned over the controls to me in order to load his camera. As long as I could see all the way around and out over the horizon, I was only slighly terrified. But when I had to pull up to gain altitude, I suddenly couldn't see anything! I was ready to turn the controls back over in a nano-second.
Needless to say, Captain had hours upon hours of simulated flying ON THE GROUND and then with an instructor (just as we first do to drive!)
Now Captain has many many years of experience taking off and flying and landing BLIND, using only instruments to tell him when hs is level, turning, climbing, or decending. Even in great turbulence, at night, and through unnerving weather, it takes a lot to shake his confidence in the INSTRUMENTATION. Captain wouldn't THINK of relying on his FEELINGS to keep the plane level or on course; FEELINGS are not trustworthy. And take it from me, they can cause you to crash.
I hope this is helpful to you today and for the future ~
