Failing Fast at Fasting ~ A Memo to Myself

Oh Dear, Abba ~

How revealing this first fasting attempt has turned out to be! No let me be more transparent . . . It was a disaster.

I 'started over' every day this week, and I still have not managed to surrender myself for a full 24 hours to even this 'baby fast' of one meal a day, with lots of liquids throughout the day. I probably should have defined "liquids" as water only; because I'm apparently quite capable of 'pigging out' on tomato soup.

Maybe starting a fast the week before your birthday . . . or during Rodeo Week . . . or during the summer has special challenges I didn't anticipate. Am I really this calendar driven?

Do we commemorate everything on the calendar with food? I kid you not, I could easily eat 3,000 calories a day in this town just from all the free food offered everywhere by everyone, especially during the summer. Summer in Sheridan, Wyoming is just one long outdoor party interrupted by work and wind. 

And when did I become a NIBBLER? I'm constantly putting something in my mouth, even when I'm not the least big hungry. It's entertainment!

Speaking of which, Dear Readers . . . remember my prayerful vow to my Heavently Father about television? When did THAT become an automatic environmental necessity? Because I work nights and days (one or the other or both) six or seven days a week, I'm not home much. But as soon as I get into my cozy, safe haven, the  FIRST thing I do after I put my purse down is jab the button on my TV. I even sleep with it on! {poorly, He adds}

Is this the value of a 'first fast'? To discover what an unconsciously carnal Christian I've let myself become?

Well, Dear Abba, if revealing all this has some value to You, then do I have a new Book of Revelations to run by You . . .  {sigh}

By the way, Dear Readers, in spite of this total failure, I was totally and magically blessed by the Triune God who imagineered one of the loveliest and fullest early birthdays I've ever had on His planet. And, happily for me, He recruited a lot of humble help from the future Pilot of Universe One.

{God's Extra Best, MTBBF ~ Montana wins . . . again.}